you're a mystery yourself

Thursday, October 16, 2008

5:16 AM

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I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up and
I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey and
it's just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away

I'm leaving today 'cause
I've gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

What about us?
What about everything we've been through?
What about trust?
you know I never wanted to hurt you
and what about me?
What am I supposed to do?
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

('ve never had a heart so true)

i really don't know what to do anymore. i don't know when to laugh and when to cry, when to let things go and when to hold on. i don't know when to defend myself, i don't know when to let my guard down.

today, it suddenly occurred to me that today was like, the last "normal" day in school. the last "normal" day in Qtown. you know, things are just... catching up with me.

i'll never forget my first day in school. my goodness, its so clear in my head. i took 275 out with hannah, it was 6:25. i thought i would make it to school in time. i took 195. and then, when i reached great world city's bus stop, i found 970 driving off. it was 7am. panic. late. raprimand. slack. new.

oh, no no no. i called mummy.

hi dear why?

mummy you know when i reached the bus stop, i saw 970 going off! and the next bus comes at 7.20, which is the time my school starts!

huh, then why didnt you leave the house earlier??

i didnt know the busses took so long to come! can i take cab? daddy gave me ten bucks today.

okay loh, byebye.

okay.

now i figure i said the last okay to reassure me. things were gna be okay, i told myself and i entered the cab. everything's alright, everything's alright, really, EVERYTHING'S ALRIGHT! morning assembly was messy, there were prefects holding up little tourist signs with classes on them.

the day was long and boring. talks after talks after talks. and the bling bling ncc guy!

goth, was that really 10 and a half months ago?

term 1 was hard. thats when most of the trouble began. class chair, smartarse, teacher's pet. swimming class, fried pasta with chicken, prawn crackers. garlic bread biscuits. i quit being class chair. i didn't treat 1A right. people like the boys, jacob, thomas, min ho, hon wen. they're actually nice people. i'm really sorry you saw my ugly side first. i guess is can't be taken back, huh?

i was so touched in class today, when jacob actually came up to me and wished me well for my transfer. i can't believe there was a point of time when i ignored him at bus stops when he said hi and stuff. i couldn't believe it when vinent w said he wanted to take a picture of me cos i was transferring and he wanted to remember me. played a game ot TOD with the girls + vincent, nearly busted my eardrums, but i had a good time. i found that i actually liked them, flaws and all, even though we weren't really even friends.

never would i have thought that the 1 person who was my 24/7 in semester 1 would completely alienate me in semester 2. never would i have thought that you would say such a thing, wonder as such, and actually voice it out in that manner.

2008 in Qtown's been a year of the unexpected.

1A,

I sincerely thank you for this year. You know, being yourselves, you've actually managed to be rather extraordinary. I'm really sorry for whatever shit you've had to endure from me, I haven't exactly been nice, I know. If I could, I'd seriously take it back.

You know, whether I'll be in 2A or not, just know; you'll always be in my mind, in my heart.

lovingly, e

&the beauty.

I am Eunice.

Sweet, (not)simple and still single.

I love Jesus, don't you come and mess our magic up.

I am 14

And very,very, very fabulous,
thankyou very much

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