went straight from school to visit seth just now after having subway. i'm never having BBQ sauce on my sandwich ever ever again. yuck. yuck yuck yuck. anyway the reason why i havent been posting much lately is because i havent really had much time. with seth's hospitalization and school and church commitments, its been tough. but i don't regret getting involved in the anniversary dinner dance, its such a wonderful experience. i had a good day yesterday, even though rehearsals went on for 6 hours. cos i had to teach sarah and ezra the moves. the new woodlands stage is humongous. and KAIROS has its own supporters. ah well dance is theraputic. ( :

i've been thinking about serving the JDs recently. i admit, when i was asked to join, i did give the decision a fair bit of thought and that it was uncle cedric who initiated it. i used to have this really great sense of joy and all serving them preteens, but now, its all different. its like i don't feel i can do much anymore. but like hwo am i to say that right God doesnt even need me to complete His work. but its to be blessed and yes, i have been. i don't regret joining, but somehow i feel that my time there is... "up".

and EOYs! they're fast approaching. i still rmb last year while preparing for PSLE daddy told me to quit WT. ah, the good times. i dont know what to do anymore. but i know i'm going to study like there's no tmr. mummy and daddy usually spend the night at the hospital nowadays anyway so i'm free to mug. did i mention, i spent 2 weeks studying for 2 chapters of chinese and i only got 69%. and i spent 8 hours working on my history, and i only got 88%. so what, the papers are tough, BUT I AM TOUGHER. i'm supposed to be, anyway. school's getting hard to bear these days. its like, i wake up at 5.30AM to come to school only to have my time wasted by teachers and my classmates? i mean, i finished an entire 200+ page novel today and i think thats saying something. i don't think i even want to transfer out to an AG/A school. i don't think i even want to complete the school year. i mean, its like what, 6/7 hours a day? i could be doing so much more studying and learning by myself.

anyway. i better buck up. even though i hope that i'll be able to start homeschooling before the end of this year, i shoul dbe studying now. so. i think i'll go on a tv/computer fast. i mean i could be doing so much more when i'm not watching HM/WoWP/TSLoZ&C.

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adios (for a long time) amigos