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Monday, June 30, 2008

1:15 AM

eeeee!

history sucks. never would i thought that a teacher would say "girls at the back ah, i tell you ah, don't lean on the wall okay." to ME. and all because of TAN MARILYN. ew. so sickening. "i didn't know there was history today, okay?" like whatever, little miss blur, monday's history period was on the old timetable too what. we were so nice to you and we trusted you with the piece of foolscap. then you don't bring it. gr.

anyway. term 3 is officially quite slacky. as in. there isn't much homework. i know i should be studying but ha-ha-ha, no test what to study? but i promise. today after tuition, i will be TRANSFORMED! hahaha. to someone who knows how to construct a rhombus and something else. and after being TRANSFORMED!, i'll go walking, then eat dinner, then bathe QUICKLY, then see what homework needs to be done(this should be at 8pm), then do it, and then try to read my history text, and science chapter 12 and ah ya, something else. hahha.

today's DJ is interesing. 5 ways to promote WEB ministry to woodlands community. i read it early in the morning, and for some reason, public BBQ just popped into my head.

ah i'm really tired. i can't wait for the wg gathering to be over. its so stressfullllll. soccer balls, frisbees, attendance, advanced parties. :O i thought organizing something like this would be easy. hahahah. anyway i'm glad clarice popped in. ARGH.

yes its stressful. (: and we've just found out that it will be postponed. 12july. when clarice asked me i was like, :O ONE MORE WEEK? anyway.

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i feel like i'm not studying properly. i feel that in school things are just not the way they should be. like peishan's acting all weird and distant. she never used to like, text and leave recess early. and being punished for anything? ME?! like, W-H-A-T-? and i'm not focused. its like. school squeezed you till you're a pore with no blackhead. and term 2 was just so truamatic, and i'm just scared it'll happen all over again. and its like, i feel so blur and stupid and disconnected with the schooling world. like, i have no idea how to piece my 2 worlds together. spiritual and schooling. i feel tired. very, very tired. i know there's work to do, so i better go do it.

cya(:

&the beauty.

2:44 AM

youth sunday was sucha blast.

"eunice, good job!"

joke or not(i don't think so, haha) it was so nice to hear something like that, so thank you Thaddeus. (: i guess not all guys are scumbags.

chior was so fun. i like singing esp in a chior, cos you sound so good even when you know you can't sing. hehh. :P it was so cool seeing the adult congregation all holding hands, kicking about and jumping. had brownies and photo taking after, spoke briefly to jonL. oh wow. its been such a long time. we don't seem to have the chance to talk these days. mm. it was nice seeing all the WEBs in action today.

well. school calls tomorrow.

oh-my-goodnessss.

dinner at potters cafe(WOOHOO) calls now.

ahh, play by ear. (LOL!)

bye!

&the beauty.

11:34 PM

something else to think about...

vi·o·late
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–verb (used with object), -lat·ed, -lat·ing.
1.
to break, infringe, or transgress (a law, rule, agreement, promise, instructions, etc.).
2.
to break in upon or disturb rudely; interfere thoughtlessly with: to violate his privacy.
3.
to break through or pass by force or without right: to violate a frontier.
4.
to treat irreverently or disrespectfully; desecrate; profane: violate a human right.
5.
to molest sexually, esp. to rape

Main Entry:
personal space
Part of Speech:
n
Definition:
the sense of invisible boundaries around an individual body and separating one from others.

this week was so perfect. i had sucha cool huge classroom, i managed to finish reading my chinese book in time for the test, i have such a fun pe teacher, i don't have much HW.

and then some people just have to screw things up.

boy, very funny right, touch what touch i scream molest ah. and prefect, laugh lah, very funny right!

calandra asked me if i wanted to be a prefect this morning. i almost said yes.

but i'm glad i didn't.

what a screwed up bunch.

&the beauty.

12:06 AM

the busy days are back. but i feel really satisfied. i love my new classroom.

anyway. i've got lotsa work to do.

bye!

&the beauty.

11:38 PM

Romans 12: 1

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God-- this is your spiritual act of worship.

something to think about. i will offer myself to God for His use, like a power ranger mega whatev, but like. i've discovered its not "anything He wants" that i will do. its anything He wants that seems do-able to me that i'll do. and what does he want me to do? be a missionary(since school is our mission field) in q-town. not just that though, but to also be pleasing and holy. woah woah woah. thats alot to accomplish. and like. we're supposed to sincerely worship God, because of all the wonderful things He has done for me(1 Samuel 12:24). sincerely. sincerity. and it should be a piece of cake, because when the Holy Spirit controls our lives, He will produce the kind of fruit in us; love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control(Acts 5:22-23).

and then now i think. how badly i've failed. i know God forgives me if i repent. i know it, but i can't really grab on to that. then now i wonder, what exactly am i holding on to for dear life?

i see a hurricane. leaves are being tossed, trees being uprooted, topsy turvy umbrellas. rain, thunder, lightning. its such chaos. where the wind blows, everything follows. and here a little girl is, with a yellow rain coat, trying to go against it. but she's losing the battle. the wind picks her up.

goodbye.

&the beauty.

1:42 AM

eunice doesnt like LSing. you know why? cos LSing sucks, and in my other life, SARA doesn't LS at all, cos she's a hard ass fashion designer. and you know why else eunice hates to LS? cos LSing comes with a stomachache that i don't quite get. eee. so gross. anyway, i need to memorise my lines. i'm gna retype them out the script is so messyyy. all over the place. like LS! eeeee. i keep farting. i have a bad somachache and body ache. eee.

byebye.

&the beauty.

4:38 AM

oh wow, how i love the theatre. it such fun being in the black room! lovelovelovely! i like my part. i don't care if i'm not genevieve/kate anymore. i like supporting better. anyway, today's rehearsal was superly funny. "romeo, oh romeo, wherefore ah-tao!" and then munaya came in late, then ms elyn was like, "MUNAYA! THERE YOU ARE!" her face was super funny. we had a good day today, despite all the confusion. i wish i were there ytd. but its okay. after rehearsal, i took a train to city hall to eat lunch with the heart of mummy and daddy, but all alone, then went to find them eating at the korean restaurant(no offence, but BARFFFFF!) and then went to get my h/phone(!!!!!). its not exactly super flashy, but i like it. its alllllmost like gifford's phone. its so funny, i used to have ethel's phone and now gifford's. hehh hehh! anyway, after that, took a cab with them and sethseth to united square, and walked around and bought my piano stand and smthsmth, then came home. i memorized my lines, and then ate, and then here i am.

there'll be more yelling and screwing up and frustration at tmr's rehearsal. but you know what? i can't wait for it to roll around. everyone there's a smarty pants.

hwachong, nus high, rg, stmarg's and.....

CHIJ KELLOCK. i refuse to call q-town my school.

(ew, school's starting.)

&the beauty.

8:22 PM

why. are. you. being. such. assholes.

i have no idea what to do with you people now.

):<

&the beauty.

10:55 PM

oh goodness i'm frickin pissed off. just found out what we'll be performing on saturday and i went goodness gracious. the cast is like, tiny, for starters. we have only 7 people. we'll be doing SWOP and the west side story. the script is like, 36 pages long? double sided some more. so in total, 78 pages? ohmannnn. i'm in swop, geneveive's mentor. the cast is rather childish, i must admit. we have confidantes and such and they like, go eww and what not. like, hellooooo, you're in another life the moment you step into the theatre. and guess what the script isnt eveb completed yet. like whats up with that. since we dont have enough people, wer're gna call in this dude jeremiah to play james. i wish we had a bigger cast. but ah whatever lah.

then when i come home hannah's being an ass and seth is just makin alot of noise and there's drilling and all. blah blah blah, my hands stink. ah, i'm just in a very bad mood now. school is starting in a week and dance is like just crumbling and swop/west side story won't be bang bang awesome and other this and thats.

walau shit lah. this sucks.

things that piss me off as of now.

1. q-town
3. hannah
4. seth
5. aunty mary
6. tuition teacher
7. stinky hands
8. stupid tv shows
9. daddy
10. mummy
11. piano teacher
12. cast
13. myself
14. crumbling dance
15. myself
16. holidays ending
17. not being able to understand my cheena book
18. having to go back to school
19. 1a
20. myself.

&the beauty.

2:45 AM

CHERUB: the sleepwalker is AMAZING, you can barely put it down. its so exciting and makes you cringe alot and laugh and go EWWWW. hahaha.

today at the lib was a very interesting experince. i was tapping my lovely turquoise fingernails on the wooden table then this old guy was like "ssssh, huey!" and he said "huey" in a whisper shout, LOL, i just kept doing it for the fun of it and he kept starting at me so i rolled my eyes and stopped for the sake of world peace. and then, hannah was sitting next to me but then she got up, but her bag was next to the chair, then this lady just planted her bottom on that chair, then i said, "someone's sitting here" then she goes, "zhe li mei you zhang wei de hor" then i was like thinking hahahah, whatever. the librarys so clean of course there aren;t any dirty seats. then hannah passed me CHERUB: the sleepwalker and i wanted to borrow it, so i put evey single one of our belongings on the chair and just walked away. then when i came back of course she had something to say right, she spoke to me in chinese again, saying smth like "ni ru guo bu zai zuo de hua, ke yo ba ni de dong si fang zai di xia ma, zeh li mei you zhang wei de, okay, bie ren yao zuo de." LOL, i was removing all my stuff from the chair and bloody lowering my butt onto the chair! then i just laughed at her and went "wo zai zuo" then to piss her off i went like. "zhang wei shi soo mo?" LOL. i don't like when people talk ing chinese and then go, "okay?" in english. ew.

anyway, i'm going to have dinner now

adios.

PS: mummy says i'm supposed to be packing today, but its 5.56 in the evening and i still don't have my packing list. hehhhhh.

&the beauty.

7:33 PM

hey ho away we go!

i'm watching made now, and its so gross. there's this girl who is so F A T and she wants to be made into a figure skater. as in. the kind who wears leotards and does jumps and spins on ice. ew. gross. fat as in, 75 pounds of her body is fat. lard. iHAefHFN gross. and she has a really bad attitude too.

anyhow, i would be watching life as we know it now, but mummy's awake, and she's in one of her funks. thats not a bad thing, its just that she gets all enthu and stuff, and she gets tired and weary easily. that kinda sucks.

OHYEAH. while watching soccer in the hotel rooms of korea, i realized that RENALDO is frickin HOTTTTT! from man u. hahahah. and rooney is UGLEHHHH! and what else. ah, i can't rmb. but then hannah told me that when beckham was in man u, they were unbeatable. cos all 3 powers were together. and alex fergurson sucks. well, however you spell that jerk's name.

LALALA, i miss eating ice cream everyday in the freezing cold.

HAHAHAH!

&the beauty.

11:22 PM

it feels so good to be home.

but being a nomad for a week was fun too. plane, attraction, bus, attraction, bus, attraction, hotel, bus, plane, so on and so forth. and the nail polish in korea is just another kind. like seriously. its sooo smooth and doesn't chip AT ALL. plus, the color is fabulous.

anyway, the thing i'll miss most about this holiday will probably be the tour guide, strangely enough. and of course, the little young children screaming, "I DON'T LIKE THIS, I DON'T LIKE IT AT ALL!" or "EEEEE! YUCKS!" and the jokes and the family always being late for the bus and leaving things in the room, and especially the card and letting the door slam. :P

but that aside, why on earth would i miss the tour guide? BECAUSE he's the bestest ever. his stories can be made into movies. he used to do taekwondo and all the teen angsting and his dad and family and his love stories and why he hates nami island, LOL, its hilarious! but he was kinda tearing when he was telling us his story. BTW, nami island is really beautiful. it was the place they filmed winter sonata. and he was quite hot, actually. HAHA.

we went to lotte world(and everland) and lotte world was just insane. the viking is crazy! it goes so high. it has 12 swings, and on the 3rd swing, sitting in the middle, the effect is that of Singapore's last row full fleged ride. and in S'pore, the feeling is only in your tummy, but in korea, it goes all over! during the ride, when the opposite side goes up, the people sitting in the last row are ON TOP of you. omg, it was seriously scary. but the carousels are soooo pretty. i sat on it 3 times in korea. and! spaghettia is veryveryvery YUMMYYYYY! and their portions are humongous! i nearly couldn't finish my caborana. it was deeeeelicious. i can still taste its deliciousness. HAHAHA! and theres this one orange drink that is so yummy. but i didn't like to eat at those little eateries, cos once you walk in, the smell of kimchee is so overpowering and i lose my appetite. hehh.

DADADADADADA, i'm pretty bored. i miss the nice bus and the driver and KORE-AAAH.

mm, i'm so relaxed. mavis refuses to tell me what the holiday homework is, pervinder has still not told me when i need to go back to school and yeah. but i'm loving it. no need to see any teachers or q-town people(by the way, there's this one recent graduate from q-town in the tour group, LOL) or take bus 33, or walk across the overhead bridge.

life is good, yes.

can't wait for saturday.

and tuesday!

&the beauty.

3:33 AM

so i'm in korea. tomorrow i'll return to seoul, and the next day i'm on the flight back to s'pore. its gna be scary going to seoul cos people are protesting and stuff about who-knows-what. its so beautiful here, like the world's problems can't bother you here. its like a secret place to hide from everything.

its also really cold here, and its SUMMER. how cold it is? wearing a jacket out, you still feel chilly and inside buildings are warmer than its surroundings.

on this trip, i've learnt things and gained much. WEIGHT, for instance. :P its RICE RICE RICE and my special "supplements". trust too, in airplanes and in traveling on foreign roads. the people are really nice and welcoming, but the dudes are HUGE. and rowdy. haha, it was quite scary. they swarm grocery shops and whoa, its scary alright.

today we went grass sledding, it was so AWESOME! daddy wiped out and was drentched cos he stretched out his legs when he was supposed to keep them folded and he lost his balance. i'm proud to say that my butt was firmly planted on the wok like thingo the whole way. (:

tomorrow we have a 5 hour bus ride, so i should be going back to my room and rest.

g'night!

(PS: at 5.30AM here[S'pore's 4.30AM], we have full force sunshine. strange huh? )

&the beauty.