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Thursday, April 24, 2008

12:56 AM

i'm in a mess. iPod's are nifty items. they are so small and compact yet they're so loud and clear. shut up, you, i know exactly what i'm talking about, i'm not being retarded. listening to Behind These Hazel Eyes and Majesty and Worth is The Lamb, its was like, almost fated. i was and am so sad. i'm going kuku, my teachers are complaining that i'm in a daze thorugh class and this and that, my grades are dropping like super alot. and i feel dropped. like, i used to be in this security blanket, and now its gone, unravelling and revealing everything to the world. everything i don't want the world to see or know.
seeing mrs cheam makes me feel like i'm doing something, but its very stressful too, because i have to listen to her instructions and all that, and i'm sacrificing my study time. and i know only i can help myself, but i can;t do it, because I JUST CAN'T DAMMIT. i am so sad. i'm sad for me, i'm sad for mummy, i'm sad for daddy, but i can't help it. it hurts and aches and spins me around, but i just can't let go. i found out today that i can be so strong for other people, and blending in and talking to people about certain things seems like 2nd nature, but i can't apply that to myself. its so easy to play a song on the piano, but so much harder to sing it out to God and mean it whith all i am. easier said than done. i wish there was a remedy. in fact, there is. no go to school. but shit lah, exams are NEXT FRIDAY, and as ms heng mentioned to us, its in EIGHT DAYS. charity and cookie dough aren't doing their jobs properly.

i was friggin emo this morn, cos i woke up at 6. i closed the front door and just cried. cried walking to the busstop, cried while waiting for the bus. evantually took a cab to school. i hate school so much. there's so much drama and dammit, this isn't the bold and the beautiful.

shit.
i
really
don't
know
what
to
do.

but maybe there;s a way out.

&the beauty.

I am Eunice.

Sweet, (not)simple and still single.

I love Jesus, don't you come and mess our magic up.

I am 14

And very,very, very fabulous,
thankyou very much

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